Place My Hopes in The Future

Moonlight falls upon all of my scars.
And once again brings them back to life,
Along with memories and sorrows alike.
Yet, there is none I would like to forget.

Haunted from sunrise to sunset,
I wonder if I can still be called Exorcist.
Am I still here? Am I even still me?
Is this a dream or do I even still exist?

Tonight the past is revived.

Our paths are no longer the same.
I struggle on in this black and white game
Bearing a curse of loneliness
As every hope slowly fades away

For many years my life was of travels.
Never having a place to call my own.
Or anywhere to consider my "home".
Not until the night when I arrived there.

At my side in battles from beginning to end
You were there, we were always together
And soon my voice called you "friends".
All while my heart called you "family".
I had hopes that this would last forever.
But alas, nothing is meant to be eternal.

And this lesson, I should already know.

Now our paths are no longer the same.
I struggle on in this black and white game
Bearing a curse of loneliness
As every hope slowly fades away

A truth we never imagined to be.
With the power to turn Heaven into Hell.
There is a shadow lurking inside of me
And Exorcist I may be, but host as well.

"An exorcist who carries a Noah inside?
Sooner or later, he’ll join the Millennium Earl"
And eyes once full of trust were poisoned with fear.
How the seeds of suspicion grow fast and strong.
Holding hearts and destroying ties before long
Soon, I couldn't stay, lost what I held so dear

Our paths are no longer the same.
I struggle on in this black and white game
Bearing a curse of loneliness
As every hope slowly fades away

My home I was forced to leave behind.
Now lonelier than ever before
And those days with all I love feel so lost,
Becoming the dream of a broken mind.
In the Order's eyes, a Exorcist no more.
Yet there is where my heart remains.

Our paths no longer the same.
I struggle on in this black and white game
Bearing a curse of loneliness
As every hope slowly fades away

Yet I stand here, this heart still my own.
I won't give up and I won't back down
I will fight and live for that one day.
When we all can smile together once again.